In some ways, this is the toughest part of having a baby. While the boob and the baby may be working, the rest of me is idle.
Sure, there are ways to work around this. For instance, I am starting to be an expert at one-handed internet surfing. For the second and third week of Little Boy´s life, I locked myself in my room, reading my way through the War of the Roses (thank you, Philippa Gregory).
But once I polished off The White Princess for the second time, I was all read out. And while I love the kid, there´s only so long I can stare at him in wonder. Mostly, I just found myself thinking about all the other things I could have been doing, things I could have been doing if my hands were free.
As I kept ruminating on all those things that needed to be done, I was reminded of Philippians 4:6.
"Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God."
Instead of worrying about those things that I couldn´t do anything about, I could pray about those things.
That, in turn, reminded me to pray for my baby, for my older children, and for the rest of my family.
With so much time almost literally on my hands, I have been reminded to pray for all kinds of people and situations I would have otherwise overlooked during my regularly-scheduled busy life.
Maybe that is the hardest thing about having a new baby--that abrupt halt of all the activities and routines that dominated our days up to the moment of the baby´s birth. Then--BAM--life comes to a halt. We´re forced to slow down dramatically. We´re stuck on the couch for sixteen hours a day, feeding this new little person.
Stepping back and reflecting, it´s a huge job. It´s an awesome responsibility--both the small person whose survival is dependant on my holding him steady, keeping me hostage on the couch, and the fact that I can simultaneously lift up numerous people, situations, needs, joys, and hurts and interceed on behalf of those directly to the God who has control over it all.
Up until recently, I haven´t been much of a "pray-er". I like doing better.
But maybe prayer is just another form of doing. Even though it doesn´t feel like I´m doing anything, I have faith that it is doing someone, somewhere, some good. After all, that´s what faith is all about--the belief that prayers do work, even when there is no physical evidence to support that belief.